woman, faithful to her husband, she could go on seeing the other
man as much as she liked? Would the Church forbid it? Riley said the
Church would forbid sin. Any priest would tell her that if she thought
it might lead to sin, she must cut it out of her life. I said that was
quite clear, but he was not telling me what I wanted to know. He
said: "What is it that you want to know?" I said I must give it up. I
couldn't put it into words. I said Roman Catholics were always so
matter-of-fact. They handed one opinions and ideas like chocolates
wrapped up in silver paper. He said: "You think that, because you
would sooner walk naked in the streets than think things out, or call
things by their names. You like leaving them vague. 'Le vague,'
Renan said, 'est pire que le faux.'"
I said, going back to the question of responsibility, that I had often
heard Catholics themselves complain of the want of responsibility of
Catholics. Riley said that might very well be; they might lack a sense
of responsibility, just as they might lack a sense of charity or
honesty. "You think," he said, "that the Church is perpetually
arranging comfortable compromises. Nothing is further from the
truth. Nothing is harder on the individual than certain of the
commandments of the Church with regard to marriage: for instance,
divorce, and the bearing of children. Some of the Church's views
were just as hard on the individual as it was hard on a man, who is
going to catch a train to see his dying child, to be delayed by a
policeman holding up the traffic, but in order to make traffic
possible, you had to have a policeman, and the individual couldn't
complain however much he might suffer.
"I know a much harder case than O'Neil's," he said: "a colleague of
mine who is married and has been completely neglected by his wife.
On the other hand, he has been looked after devotedly for years by
another woman, who nursed him when he was ill and saved his life.
He wants to become a Catholic, but he knows quite well that the
Church will not receive him unless he were to give up this woman,
whom he adores, and go back to his wife, who is indifferent to him.
What you don't understand," he said, "is that the Church is not an
air cushion but a rock."